It’s 10:40pm as I’m writing this, and my anxiety and nervousness is beginning to grow. I constantly remind myself that it’s going to be okay even though I don’t know that for sure. School begins tomorrow, but it feels more like the beginning of a new chapter in my life. This is something that I want to do but it’s also something that I need to do. I haven’t been successful in the past with completing my educational career, but I have no doubts that that will change now. But why the nervousness?      To keep my mind at ease, I have been watching Friends all weekend. All weekend. I took a break from watching it, to write this blog post.[…]

     I begin school soon, and I genuinely don’t know how to feel about it. I already know that I’m anxious about it, but the question is why? The more I think about it, it might be because of failure. My history with education hasn’t always been the best. Which is what I’ve always strived for, but realizing now that “the best” is different from “my best”.      I would usually quit something before I even gave it a chance, and when I mean something, I mean everything. It has become a negative energy that surrounds and follows me everywhere I go now. I have nothing to show for my hard work because I never had a hard day at work. Maybe[…]