It’s Monday. It was on this day that I woke up at 8:00am and found a reason to get up out of bed. I decided to start my own personal YouTube channel. I’ve come to this conclusion simply by watching other people. Every since I was 15 years old, I imagined putting myself on the internet and creating content for people to enjoy.
But that’s the thing though isn’t it. I watched, I thought, and I imagined. I never put thought into action. It was always “maybe later” or “when I have more knowledge”. But the honest truth for those excuses were because of my insecurities. I fear that people from my highschool days will stumble upon my videos and I will get laughed at. I always thought, for some reason, that that was more than enough to not make videos.
Here I am. Naked. Filled with fear, insecurites and shame. But screw it. I want to be vulnerable. I want this to be my life. I want to wake up every morning, with a reason to get up. I can honestly say, that for the first time in my life, I feel like I’m accepting me as I’m suppose to be. Fear will always linger, but it’s what I do to push forward that counts. Doing nothing, isn’t acceptable to me anymore. I need to live life and not let it pass me by.
Check out my very first video: A New Perspective